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Schizophrenia

I have periodic moments of mild schizophrenia. Some days I feel like I’m on top of the world and wanna live it up. Some days I feel like I just wanna be conservative. Some days I wanna be frugal, other days I try to spend every last penny. Some days I care deeply about life some days I just wouldn’t care if everything crashed and burned. I wish I were satisfied with habit or balance....

Jan 27th

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Life journeys

What does it mean to live right now? I think everyone knows it but doesn’t speak of it but we all know that sooner or later, we will be going our separate ways. Some will go farther than others, some will stay just where they are and in both ways it’s beautiful. Life takes us all over the world and who knows where all of us will be? I remember I was talking in a group of close...

Jan 10th

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My mom.

Over the course of my growing up, I’ve come to learn how much I truly admire my parents. Ive always thought that they were great and perfect but ive come to the realization of how incredibly lucky I am. I don’t remember them really fighting much and if they did, it was short lived. I’ll start with my mom since she’s the one I feel like I’m the most like. She cooks...

Dec 27th

Replaceability

I have a pretty screwed up sense of viewing friendships and relationships. Is it wrong to see people as replaceable? Not in the sense of “oh I’m better than you”, but more along the thought process of upgrading. For example, in terms of items, there is always something that is better, faster, better looking, more user friendly, more convenient, more interesting. In the realm of...

Dec 12th

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Doubtful.

I’ve always tried to pinpoint events in my life where/when I have realizations that alter my decisions. And I believe that everyone knows their own flaws and the “amount” of change that they care to make for those flaws. The line between my faith and my human nature is always moving and I hate it does. I wish I could just become a robot so I don’t have to struggle with my...

Dec 3rd

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Middle class importance

The U.S. economy is in dire trouble. Everyday I read the news and look around, all I see is a growing disparity between the economic health of the day prior. There is no repair in sight. I honestly will take the next ticket out of here as soon as I can to avoid the true crash of the American economy. The best way to see the American economy is to view it as a factory where there are 3 types of...

Dec 1st

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Not too bad.

I don’t know where to go from here. Career wise, I’m not too worried, it’s an indescribable feeling of feeling lost but not really at the same time. There’s times where I just want to stop thinking. I want to be able to turn off the lights at 11pm and lay down and have a clear mind and fall into a dream of nothingness. But I can’t. I have mental baggage that drags...

Oct 29th

Dreams.

So I’ve always been one to be the voice of reason and speak against bloated dreams. By bloated dreams, I mean those dreams that have little chance of success and also that satisfy a one dimensional selfish goal. I feel like it gives a sense of false entitlement to a generation that lacks efficiency and hard-work already. However, I still believe dreams and goals that are placed in the right...

Oct 26th

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Vegas

So this past trip has been a pretty epic trip. I must say that it was very toned down in terms of the drinking-dancing but very much toned up interm of actually gambling. I never play alone so this time some friends were down to play so i just stayed on the tables with them. It was probably one of the most exciting trips ever. There are several rules you should follow before going to vegas...

Jun 21st

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Tangential

Intrinsic value versus Subjective value. What are these values? Intrinsic value is the most basic view of value, tallying up costs in production, shipping, etc; It is one theory of value. The other type of value system is the subjective value system. This system basis it’s theory on scarcity/supply&demand. It is summarized by how rare and how desired something is. Something ingrained...

Jun 16th

More music

There’s nothing that beats the wonder of listening to a song for the first time. Music has the power to pick you up from your current surroundings and put you back in time to when you first heard the song. It can make you feel like you’re on a cloud floating above everything or down so deep that you can’t breathe. Rhythmic beating of an 808 drum can make you feel like every step...

Jun 15th

Comparisons have made me sick. Asian people love to compare. You know it, I know it. We all know of the parents who have the perfect kids and compare us to them. We know how degrading it may be. My older sister understands me. I applied to certain graduate schools last year and got in through the grace of God. I say “certain” because it doesn’t matter what it is. The general...

Jun 13th

I realized how many character flaws that I have that are deemed horrible. If not for Jesus I’d probably be lost in God knows what. Yet for some reason I keep going back to make the same mistakes. I’ve figured out that innately, I have no regard for myself. I lack the self-respect to do what’s best for me. Instead, I damage myself. You know that saying, “You can’t take...

Jun 4th

Yoshi bonanza

Had a day off today. Took my yoshi to the park in the afternoon and just relaxed. I laid down on the ground and just napped with my dog before heading out with friends to watch movies. It’s been over a year since I got him and just having him in my life has given me such motivation and growth both responsibility and maturity wise. He’s always been there when I’m having a bad day...

Jun 3rd

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Do you ever get those days when I feel like curling up and disappearing? So many big decisions in my life nowadays I just don’t wanna deal with any of them. I’m feeling the growing pains and consequences of my actions daily. But that’s just the way things work right? No work til sunday night so I’m just up playing piano til sunrise cause i’m in a down mood and that...

Jun 2nd

Electric Daisies

Sigh I love house music and dubstep and all those kinds of musics. But i can’t stand the mind numbing drugs so I’ve avoided going to all the concerts (raves). The last time I went to EDC was in high school and since then they’ve got all sorts of crazy lineups! And this year EDC is moving to vegas which means it’s definitely gonna be awesome! But to no avail, I will not be...

May 18th

Reblog.

I normally don’t reblog cause I find it disinteresting to read other people’s reblogs for the most part because they want to portray their sense of taste most of the time through cutesy pictures of clothes, buildings and it usually doesn’t really project any thought other than aesthetics or pseudo-novelty. But this one thing is vitally important and really disheartening....

May 16th

The little things.

This post is made to appreciate all the little things in life that compound to make it all enjoyable. I love waking up and opening the window for the first breath of cold crisp air. Every drop of sunlight gives me a sense of hope and every cloud gives me comfort. I don’t know where I’d be without my dog that sleeps next to me and is my most loyal companion. I’m so blessed for...

May 9th

smile

I haven’t really had time to lay down to just enjoy music lately. But i did today! And i saved up a bunch of songs to listen to over the course of the past 2 weeks and one really made me feel happy. It’s one of those feel good songs. Jessie J ft B.o.B. - Price tag. It’s nice to not think about money. I come off as the type of guy that is spendy and doesn’t look at the...

Apr 30th

Cheer.

Life is grand. There really isn’t anything that beats California sunshine and a nice breeze. I realized that I only post stuff when I’m feeling somewhat down or having something to get off my chest. Screw that. It makes me feel like an emo pussy. So here I am, woke up at 5, took my yoshi for a hike, made some breakfast, and now I’m sitting out in the backyard typing out a more...

Mar 26th

I couldn’t sleep last night. It’s 6 in the morning. I have work soon but something on my mind has just been keeping me up so it’s better for me to just put it down here and leave it instead of bringing it to the E.R. Do you ever feel like no one cares? Not in the emo sense of “oh i have no friends, no one cares about me waahhhhh”. But in a more genuine, no one...

Mar 22nd

I had a friend who went to vegas this past weekend. He came back and said “back to real life”. As if that were a bad thing. I suppose 99% of people live life like that. I try so hard to live the complete opposite of that and it’s probably been the most rewarding. So I encourage all of my friends and loved ones to do what you love and live what you love. I hate coming off cocky...

Feb 22nd

New Years Resolutions. As always.

I suppose it’s normal to do a new years resolution thing. And usually I fail about 75% of the resolutions. At the same time I’m relatively happy with a 25% success rate, so we’ll see how things go this year. I think I’ll have more “grown up” resolutions than previous years. Some things just don’t belong on a resolutions list. For example: I’d put...

Jan 2nd

My heart of darkness.

This is a story of a boy named M. He was a free soul who constantly traveled from town to town. One important thing you should know about M is that he has this heart shaped glass that captures sunshine that he cannot live without and thus the story begins… Every night, M would sit out on top of his roof and stare at the clouds with the moon gently shining through. As they passed by...

Dec 29th

True Value

We have a false sense of entitlement. We don’t deserve nice clothing, nice cars, nice “things”. At least for the most part most people don’t deserve it. Just going through shopping for this christmas made me realize how pathetic people are. Getting themselves tied down to brand named things claiming “quality” for the ridiculous price. No, you’re buying...

Dec 19th

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Dec 14th

Someone important to me called me this morning and I couldn’t go back to sleep so I might as well write cause it’s cold and I’m too lazy to get up and not tired enough to go back to sleep. Maybe I’ll get tired after this post. The wicked in his proud countenance does not seek God; God is in none of his thoughts. Psalms 10:4 NKJV I think through the past few weeks...

Dec 14th

“I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.”

Dec 13th

Sometimes it’s really just this simple.

Dec 4th

Spanksgiving

So my parent’s and relatives are pretty white washed when it comes to celebrating holidays. We do a large thanksgiving feast every year and it’s awesome just being with close family. I really have a lot to be thankful for. After consuming pounds of meat and carbs, I must admit, life is way better than I deserve. They say that the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach which...

Nov 27th

My Eternal Happiness

I’m up late and have been grinding away at studying for my EMT class tomorrow night and decided to just write everything that’s on my mind out now. I’ve held all of this in for a long time because I don’t want to come off as some attention whore or drama queen. But whatever, I’m gonna be me. The things may come off as incomprehensible, random with lots of tangents,...

Nov 24th

Mu$1k

So about 4 months ago I finally bought this new keyboard. OMFG BEST PURCHASE EVER! It has some nice weighted keys and it’s been rather pleasant and easy to use. I ended up dropping a good amount of money and at first I was wondering if it was worth it but honestly, it has been a well rewarding investment for the most part. No more crappy m-audio starter piano! Just from a busy day I...

Oct 14th

Oct 4th

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Caterpillars see an end, butterflies see a beginning.

Jun 15th

WTF

After Monday and Tuesday, even the week says WTF

May 3rd

You're my dream

Theres nothing like the thumping of the bass and a concerto of different electronic beats flowing out of speakers. If I play it just loud enough, it feels almost ethereal and unreal. It’s just me and you with your voice gently resonating in my ears. At that moment nothing else can pull me away from you and the slow repetitiveness of your electronica keeps me in a hypnotic trance. I...

May 2nd

Never hope for more than you work.

Apr 20th

Death is on the tip of her tongue and danger is at the tip of her fingers. Michael Woods - Solex (close to the edge)

Feb 5th

With the end of the past decade, I’ve had no large realization, just future expectations. I’ve been living life conservatively and carefully and to be honest, it’s been a freakin’ bore and limited beyond anything else. Sure I could be smiley and crap; hoping for this or that, but it really is a take it or leave it life that we live. Within these next 10 years = marriages,...

Jan 3rd

LOOOL pretty cute

9:30 am, up since 8 am to study but came across this trailer during my breakfast break. haha

Dec 5th

fixed

So apparently the link before wasn’t working. This one should I believe. The link is sorta confusing to find. Just look for the words “click here” at the bottom of the page past the ads. Next to Save file to PC: http://www.2shared.com/file/9392799/32acb7c8/1st_song.html

Nov 23rd

Music

Whenever I feel like just getting away I usually bust out the cheap keyboard I bought from Bestbuy. I’ve been meaning to buy a nicer one but right when i save the money i end up using it on something else that takes precedence. I sorta play stuff out of how I feel. It’s rather repetitive and glum haha minor keys ftw. I have a whole album of just my music that I’ve played and...

Nov 23rd

Hum

This was prettttyyyy sick. JayZ + John Mayer - D.O.A.

Sep 26th

Don’t look at the roses at your feet, keep your eyes on the horizon cause that ray of light is hard to keep.

Sep 22nd

Craq $p0t

I was thinking about houses cause I had this conversation with emily about future houses and projected number of years before getting a house etc, etc, and I started wondering what kinda house I wanted. I came upon some pretty nifty house designs that I enjoyed a lot. Some I’ll admit are seemingly impractical and not to mention i’d go crazy trying to keep it clean. Cause lets admit, no...

Aug 12th

Remember This?

May 13th

Finally.

So I’ve finally found a blog that feels and fits well. I think it’ll stick better than the rest. Lots of things to come!

Apr 30th